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I really dont know where to begin, but i was diagnosed finally in 2005, at 19. SO much for fun time and great new friends at college. As it stands i am still fighting to stay above water. Crohn's, fibromalgia, cervical cancer, bones softening Vit. D defic. and just so much pain. The meds. i have taken in the past and have now started on all over again brings me to tears almost daily. The depression i feel and the feeling as a failure at life and a burden to almost everyone i know constanly plauges me. i dont know what to do anymore. everyday i just think, WHY!!!!!. i have never been a healthy child and going to college seemed to be a set of new beginnings. only it has seemed to be a series of failures, ( broken friendship, boyfriends leaving me in a hospitial, no social life, having to withdrawl from college for a year due to painful surgies) A human can take so much and i have reached that point too many time in my short life. I have tried to talk to therapists but they never seem to understand the emotional problems i have assoc. with crohn's and now my several other diseases as well. i just want someone  to help guide me in this unjust life that to me never seems to hold an answer for me. i guess the question i face the most is, why is this happening to me and why can't i stop this. i feel i am a good person, but it takes me alomost an hour to get out of bed because i am in so much pain all the time. modern medicine and herbal medicine and anything inbetween hasn't help. why can't anyone help me...

 Reply posted for Sarah.

Thanks a lot for the helpful comments. they were well needed at the time. i have since seen my doctor and they are just got done with doing a lot of bloodwork and scans. i find out my results on monday the 25. my doctor has put me on elavil, it is a tri-cyclic and he hopes that in response to the depression i encountered with the steroids, it will change that and will help ease the pain with my fibro. it is a good place to hope and except for the dizzy spells i have been getting it seems to help. once again i want to thank those who responded and i have just one more question, has anyone tried elavil??? Lauren

 Reply posted for scarlettsweet09.

you're def. not alone and I can strongly relate to your frustration. I'm 24 and was diagnosed at 16. I couldn't play soccer my senior yr and was sick for the junior prom...lots of fun. I've also lost friends over this cuz ppl just don't get it if they don't have it. Sorry you're having such a difficult time and I hope you continue to talk to ppl on the forum because it usually helps for me. Email me anytime if you need to let out any frustration I know how you feel. prado.s@comcast.net. Hope you feel better!

 Reply posted for scarlettsweet09.

i was diagnosed with crohn's in 1980, but suffered with digestive problems all my life, or as far back as i can remember.  i have had 2 major bowel resections and numerous other surgeries, as a matter a fact, i just had my last remaining ovary removed and a hernia fixed this last month.  sometimes i think depression is my middle name, i have been on all kinds of medication for my crohn's as well as depression over the years.  it can be very frustrating at times that's for sure.  i used to feel sorry for myself on a regular basis, wondering why me, but then i came to the conclusion that it rains on the rightious as well as the unrightious.  in other words, why not me!  god has a plan for all of us, he allows us to go through situations in life to bring us closer to him.  the key is to not get discouraged but to seek him through our trials and tribulations.  and boy are there alot of trials and tribulations.  i don't have the answers but i do have faith that things do work out.   i've been living with this disease for over 35 years and i can tell you it has been *** at times, but you can live with this disease.  if you or anyone who reads this ever wants to talk you can e-mail me at pjhuber62@gmail.com.  god bless to all who deal with this on a daily basis.

sincerely,

phyllis

 Reply posted for scarlettsweet09.

Hey!
Listen, your DEFF not alone with this...im 21 years old and was diagnosed with Crohns disease my senior year of highschool....it was THE toughest thing to deal with. I understand being depressed because I feel completely lost. But please don't lose hope! where there is a closed door, a window is always opened. Sound's silly but it works. Looking towards anti-depressents might help as well, but i don't want to steer you in the wrong direction. I have so many pills to take now that i just get sick when i look at them. If you EVER need to talk to any one..please do not hesitate to contact me...my screen name is HoTbUnNy134.

Please take care
Marla

 Reply posted for ak346.

i was on lexpro for awhile and it helped a lot

 Reply posted for scarlettsweet09.

 YOUR NOT ALONE YOU CAN DO THIS... ITS HARD BUT I PROMISE IT DOES GET BETTER....

YOU HAVE A FREIND HERE ALL THE TIME MY SCREEN NAME ON AOL IS DIVOTRL

YOUR FREIND JARED

 Reply posted for scarlettsweet09.

I also am about to be in college, and I'm worried about how things will go since I've been diagnosed with colitis, and my GI is fairly sure I have crohn's a well.  I also have suffered from severe depression due to my illness.  Have you tried anti depressants?  Lexapro is good.  You are not alone.  Thank you for reaching out for help.  Life is not fair, but it is easier to deal with that fact with friends.  Keep working through it.  You're worth it, and later you'll be stronger for what you've been through.