Hi,
I am new to the fourm. Finally decided to join after going off the deep end...
I have always had anxiety and depression but I think my recent flare is driving me insane.
I was diagnosed at 15 and didn't have much trouble handling it mentally but now having a pretty bad flare in my early 20s when I have responsiblities, rent to pay, a long term boyfriend, starting a new career, my UC feels like the bigggest burden not only phsyiclly but emotioally. It is so tolling to be in pain and feel so misunderstood and worry about my future children.
I do not feel capable, it feels like this big disgusting curse. If I am phsycially not well, my career and money take a hit. If I am having intense symptoms it is embarassing and taxing on my relationship. It is hard for me to communicate, I blow up on my boyfriend for not understanding but I realize now I am just projecting all of my own fears and insecurities.
It is almost impossible for me to keep my stress levels down and it is making my symptoms worse and creating strains in my relationships.
Any advice on dealing with the mental stress? How to not feel like just giving up?
Reply posted for gonzo777.
Hi i feel your pain, cause i have chons/colitis. I have had depression/anxiety in the past and now that is rearing its ugly head. The fact that you work and make a life for yourself, tells me you are strong. I am in the process of finding a person to talk to. There is strength in numbers, there really is, and i wish that had meetings near me. Support groups can be very helpful. Try a day at a time. I know the pain, but all this other emotional stuff is draining.
Reply posted for gonzo777.
I found therapy very helpful. I went on Psych Today's website and searched for therapists in my area who specialize in chronic illness. The coping skills that I've worked on the past few months have helped me so much, both in accepting my illness and in how I interact with my loved ones. And I have talked very openly with my fiance on what Crohn's in like, how I feel about the future living with it, and when I am very down, how hopeless it feels. Being open and explaining what is going on in your head will help your boyfriend know how to help you. I found that explaining my stress levels and exhaustion using the "Spoon Theory" made my family really click in and understand.
I wish you the best of luck! If you need to chat, I am happy to listen :)