To Keitha340
Tue, May 05, 2009 1:00 PM
I have been to the dark place you are in now. I had a diagnosis 5 years ago of UC and suffered MISERABLY, I couldnt work, my marriage was in the dumps, I was barely able to care for my baby, we were completly broke and on welfare, I was having debillitating panic attacks daily, my sister passed away, a cousin committed suicide, and two of my beloved grandparents passed away. I have held a razor to my wrists, thought about driving my car off a hillside or "accidently" ingesting too much medicine because I couldnt go another day living like this. But I couldnt do that to my family. You need to find the voice inside that is screaming for you to keep going. You want a better life and you deserve one. I found that nobody could help me but me. But what you need to know is that you CAN help yourself. My first step was to seek help for the panic attacks, depression over my losses, and anger at being dealt such a sh*##y hand in life. I was not medicated but learned tools to cope. Next, I stopped the pitty party and decided I cannot change what I have (uc) but I CAN control how I move forward with it. Next, I changed my diet. I had heard the connection between food allergies and IBD and thought what the heck. I am now working full time, am a great mom, training for a marathon, my marriage is better than ever, and I feel pretty good. I have not had medication for UC since February of this year and manage just fine with diet. Not to say that is easy, but look at my alternative (meds, side affects, depression, the same rut). Read what Patman or Jayman are doing and you will find answers. Chin up! Look this demon in the eyes and say, NO you cannot destroy me.
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