Life is tough........
Sun, June 27, 2010 12:00 AM
It's so hard to stay positive dealing with this disease as well as other issues in my life.........not only do I battle colitis but my husband is very sick......I am his caregiver per se...........and there is no end in sight........it's not like something that will get better....it is forever......and it gets very depressing when I think about that.......and then I feel guilty for feeling that way......Life has taken a big turn around........big change....forever and we will never get to do the things we used too....this is not how I envisioned life would be....I know I sound like a terrible person.........I'm really not.......just have my moments that I need to melt down and I have found this is the place to do it......I used to confide in a friend once or twice a month ...just sent a message to express my feelings to them......they walked away....not my friend anymore......said I was dragging them down.....and it was during a bad flare so it just got worse because of the emotions....they still have their back turned and it's been three weeks.......I guess people who don't understand just cannot handle it sometimes......so......now I will come here if it's okay......just typing my feelings when I have these moments helps......kind of opens my heart to reach out ......even if noone replys......it helps.....just got my Mom out of the hospital too.......it's been a tough week......and tomorrow is Monday.......back to work and another week.......I have to remind myself things can be worse....my cousin is watching her husband die from cancer as I write this.....he only has a few days at the most.....I think about her and talk with her and then feel like I shouldn't grieve for myself and our situation....life sure is hard sometimes....thanks for letting me vent.......
Joined Oct 24, 2009
Tue, June 29, 2010 8:48 AM
Reply posted for taw.
look at the bright side of things...your fmaily and true friends will be there to help you, listen to you, and love you along the way. it has been *** my family and freinds, having been recently diagnosed with crohn's disease, but they understand how much harder it is on me and are a great support system. and if all else fails, we are here for you. i am always optimistic and am hardly ever depressed. however, the past two months have been really dragging me down. i just remind myself on a daily basis that there is always tomorrow and that i am worth it. basically, give yourself a pep talk and be your own cheerleader if no one else will.
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Joined Jun 3, 2010
Sun, June 27, 2010 12:00 AM
Reply posted for taw.
Yes, life is tough (at times). It is too also very rewarding. We need to embrace those days as the precious gifts that they are. Your friend who turned their back was never really a true friend. Something similar happened to me many years ago. What I have since learned to do is say "oh -well, next". Never look back, only look forward. Look forward for a better day. Know that you are not alone in this and that yes, there are worse off people than you, and people who understand you completely. Be strong, this difficult moment shall pass.
Lizzies Mom
Joined Sep 9, 2009
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